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If only it was true that the results are releasing soon. Rumours have been spread from last last friday, to last Friday, and hopefully the last piece of information that it is this coming Friday would be true.

Not that i am very eager to see the “fabulous” results that i am hoping to get. It’s more of the 1 day off that i can get away from NS to collect my results and once again return back to school to visit all the has been all over again. The band, teachers, landscape and memories that was left and kept there.

Hopefully everything goes well, hopefully. Getting into the desired course is the ultimate goal right now, which it definitely has to come along with good grades.

This blog is starting to rot, seriously rot. Whenever i have some thought than i want to pen it down, i would tell myself that i will share it when i get home. But it seems that whenever i reach home, my brain would be so switched off that i forget what i initially wanted to say.

If only they allowed Laptops in camp, which they didn’t forbid just that the chargers are prohibited.

If you are wondering how’s PNS life is like. You’ll get what i mean in a couple of sentences below. Some of the things which we did the last week.

1. Watched a soccer match between Home United and Dalian Live at Bishan Stadium
2. Went for a Heritage Tour
3. Enough time at night to sleep and wake up to find that it’s not lights out time yet.

Well, of course i’m not complaining that it’s too slack in there, or rather it should be rephrased as most of the time we’re wasting time. But if time are being utilised properly, they could have well shorten the training period from 3 months to 2 months. Now that my batch has training for 4months plus, which makes the thought of this even more unbearable.

NS is a whole new disruption to the life for guys. Looking at your female friends of the same age entering University, while we are still serving the Nation. Completely switched off mind during the 2 years period and then back to books again. There are pros and cons to it, but the pasture at the other side always look greener and more delicious i have to say.

This is what has been spread around, and it seem pretty true looking at the state people around us are. The post NS syndrome, which makes people look older than they seem to be. With more serious look, and mature thinking… *shrugs* How true it might be, you determine it yourself.

But still, i want to be myself. The change might be gradual as we start to take on more roles and responsibilities after we pass out, and hopefully it’s for the better.

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I did something extraordinary on Monday for my Night Training.

Still suffering from the depression that i failed my Standing Broad Jump ONCE AGAIN, i decided to do lunges with weights around the Unity Square a.k.a Parade Square of HTA.

If you have doubts about what lunges are the picture below will give you a better idea of what it is.

I thought it wasn’t going to be very tough initially, but when i first started like 50metres, i was already sweating like crazy and gasping for air and breath already.

Thankfully, i have great determination. I managed to finish the whole round of the Unity Square in approximately half an hour. Though i too many breaks, but still i am glad i finished it. I was one of the biggest feat i have completed in HTA.

Some statistics, for my leg length, i take 773 lunges to complete one round around Unity Square. Half an hour, with weights of 4.5kg on each side of my arm.

That explains the unbearable ache i am suffering on my thighs now, it makes it almost impossible for me to go down a flight of stairs or a slope. Slow jogging is still possible though.

Try it with caution, you will love the tightness on your thighs. Hopefully it aids in SBJ, giving me an extra boost in the next IPPT.

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Words can’t express how i am feeling right now. Its like a big battle within myself and i have no idea on which sides to take on.

One side is telling me to go with my heart, give it all out and not regret it. The other is telling me to chill and wait for the best opportunity to come by before striking on it.

I hate this kind of feeling, there’s totally nothing much that i can do now, but to wait.

Probably it’s really true that its not the best time to do this, the feeling’s really terrible. Furthermore, i’m not even at the known of the outcome of it, making me feel more jitterish.

All i could do is to imagine the scenes that could possible happen which i had almost failed to think of the negative consequences of it.

It’s all about myself. Somehow, it feels good to just keep things just in thoughts and wait.

Good things are worth the wait, so why not. Keep on believing.

Taking in mind that these are words, which means it doesn’t really expresses how i feel now, somewhere along the line probably.

Btw, Happy Birthday to Teo Cheng Song. Though i believe he’s feeling great right now.

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The reason for me being able to come back every Friday is because i passed my IPPT. But every week i do my IPPT, there would be a fear that i can’t do well in one of the stations.

All’s good but standing broad jump. It seems that this is the station that is obstructing me from achieving my ultimate goal in IPPT.

I merely passed with a distance of 216cm, quite discouraging though as the number has been there for almost 4 weeks while the other stations has improved gradually as weeks passed.

Someone give me some good advices or tips to improve on it please.

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Like most people say, in NS you get to meet all kind of people. I can’t disagree any further on this statement. Let me introduce this guy, hopefully it doesn’t stink up my blog.

His name is XXX, shouldn’t be that evil to that extent of revealing his name in the blogosphere, but he has some nicknames that you can follow. They include, “the force”, “el-stinko”, “smelly boy”, etc..

Well, from what you see from the nicks given to him, instant instincts tells you that he’s not someone that is very pleasant to the nose.

Here goes.

I shall address him to be Mr. smell in my blog entry below.

Mr Smell has a distinct BO that one could tell from a distance of 10metres away. Well, coming from a Bp squad, sometimes excessively fat people have a intolerable stench on their body due to the sweat glands and such. We all understand that, so the best possible way to minimize such smell impacts would be to change clothes more often, or to bathe more often ain’t that right?

But due to the nature of Mr. Smelly, he’s a downright stubborn boy. During break times where people usually go take a shower to prepare for the next activity in hand, he never does that, or should i say seldom. He would just sit down beside his bed and quickly change into the next activity’s attire with a stupid alarm clock on his hand.

Well, i forgot to mention that he’s the No.1 paranoid in the squad. He follows exactly what the officers tells us, and is always the first to fall in. Alright, an example would be good..

Let say the time required to fall in is 0900hrs, when we are being dismissed from the Mess/Cookhouse at 0755hrs, he would he changed into his No.3(full uniform) by 0805hrs, while the rest of us are still in singlets and shorts.

Well, any idiot would know that the full uniform makes people sweat more and will stink up the shirt if there is excessively sweat on it. But he just doesn’t seem to bother.

Moreover, he has the fastest flow of sweat that i have ever seen in my life. Standing in attention for a mere 5 mins, you can see his whole face filled with beads of sweat, while the others are still dry and smelling good.

It most probably due to his high level of tensed up feeling and paranoids that make him sweat so easily. 

Furthermore, he sleeps in his PT Kit, which is the kit that we wear for Physical training sessions, which this makes the situation much more worst when he sweats when he sleep on this back. Many complained that even in the morning when the sun is not even up yet they are able to smell his odour while walking behind him or standing behind him to brush teeth. Although he might claims that he does change his shirt, but wearing the PT attire to sleep does make the polo t-shirt smelly over the night.

To sum up, it’s not 1 or 2 reasons that make up Mr. Smell. It’s a combination of the most deadly factors that make up the stench, which not many people is capable of doing so.

1. untolerable BO
2. refuses to change new sets of clothings
3. refuses to bathe
4. always feeling so stressed up
5. stubborn nature of not listening to advices

Well, its not like he is not told of his unbearable odour coming out from his body. In the initial stages, we all thought that we shouldn’t be so bad to tell him right straight in the face but to hint him here and there about the intolerable odour that exists on his body. But it seems that it doesn’t work well at all. Despite all the advices of telling him to change and bathe more frequently, he turns them down on deaf ears and even rebuts them with some stupid logic like bathing too often will cause a person to catch a cold easily.

It has now reached a stage where by people have gave up advising him on what to do, since he doesn’t want to comply with what we says, we have no choice but to take actions. It is interesting that whenever we fall in, the people that are standing around him often have difficulty breathing, try marching behind someone like him. I bet you would visit the MO (medical officer) very soon.

Also, during meal times, often the seats beside him would be empty. The very simple reason that the Mess food is already bad enough to consume, additional fillings like such smell would just make us puke out the food than to eat it.

It is bad to a certain degree that there are some that bring air fresheners to class to follow his trail.

You guys must be thinking, who is the unlucky fellow that is sleeping beside him in the bunk. I don’t know if i’ve aggravated him in my previous life or whatsoever, but that unlucky fellow is me. But being a bastard, i am, i have already thought of good plans to keeping myself alive. Stuffs like sleeping in another room, on another bed when the guy is on MC, or not there. Or just spamming the air fresheners around my region.

I give my word that the degree of “bastardness” from me would increase exponentially if this doesn’t improve. That’s how NS works.

Poor ME!

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Apologies for not updating. but the last weekend has really flown by in a flash. With most of the time attending band practices, and rotting at home.

Somehow i feel that my life seems to be stagnated water, with Mondays to Fridays doing the same thing in camp, coming out only in the weekends and to do those same activities all over again.

Well, at least i can have some form of activities, better than rotting at home sleeping and staring at the laptop.

It’s important for someone, especially in my context of myself to be kept busy. One thing that i can’t really stand is to idle around, not knowing what is happening around me and not to be informed of the next activity. Probably because of the fact that i have a higher level of curiosity compared to other people or whatsoever.

Having band practices consecutive on the 2 book out days is a little torturous,  it makes me feel like a lifeless soul.

Nonetheless, its better than not doing anything. I have no idea what i am rambling about though.

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Yesterday marks the last day for Prep Course, where it is a phase to train up less fit people like me to be geared up for Basic Police Training (BPT).

It’s really rather fast, that one month is gone just like this. Though it’s officially one month, but the actual days that we spent there are only 3weeks or so, thanks to the many holidays during the period and weekends.

We survived Prep Course, more things are coming up in the week up ahead.

1. Law Lessons
2. PSOC Lessons
3. PDT Lessons
4. Swimming Lessons
5. Range
6. More IPPT..

Well, i guess we’re more or less starting to get accustomed to the kind of life we can expect in HTA. In such cases of situation, there’s no point sighing or grumbling about the wastage of life and time there. More complaining and cursing will not make the situation any better.

My piece of true advice would be that to take things in your stride. Regardless of SAF or SPF, i believe it is only through these mindsets that smoothens our 2 years path in NS. We’ve got to accept fate that it’s the path that we all have to go through as guys under the Enlistment Act to serve the National Service for the Republic Of Singapore.

It’s interesting in a sense that when we’re starting to get used the life there, all the punishments and stuffs, we don’t get so uptight about being punished and scolded. Somehow i guess the instructors are too tired and can’t be bothered to scold and nag so much already, unless it’s some major faults and errs.

To sum up my first 1 month there..

5 most hated words/phrase

• to the left/right on your palms down
• heads out
• fall-in
• confinement
• “unlimited counts of jumping jacks, exercise begin”

5 most loved words/phrase

• ” Squad, Keluar Baris”
• Last count and still
• walk-out
• lights off
• POP

I tend to let my mind run real wild when i’m in camp. Thinking back about the different stages of life that we have walked through.

In Primary School, we always found P.E sessions too short and insufficient.

In Secondary School, we dreaded physical training, but loved the games that we can play then.

In JC, PE was one of the most hated lessons.

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But all these were still not as bad as Physical Training (PT) in NS. Like one of the instructors said, back then in school it was Physical EDUCATION, now its TRAINING, different, period.

As true as his words meant, the discipline level is definitely much much higher. More endurance and determination would be required. No more spoon feeding and pampering.

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Also, teachers once tell us to put our fingers on our lips, to make sure we keep quiet. In NS, it’s about the same, just that the action of putting the finger on the lip is replaced by push-up positions and jumping jacks.

In the past, we were not allowed to run along the corridors, if not the prefects will write our names down in the pathetic blue notebook to report to the teachers.

In NS, we’re expected to run everywhere, from this destination to the next. How we wish we could reverse the conditions and the situations around.

Contrary of Life..

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I was bored and tried to login to NYXCHANGE LITESPEED. Apparently, it doesn’t recognise my IC anymore :(  I’m an expired student.

Cheers!

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Happy New Year Everyone!!

It’s the brand new year all over again, like just waking up from your cozy bed, and finding yourself stepping to another realm of the world.

Based on year count, i’m 19 this year. the BIG 2 is only around the vicinity already. Though it’s just a matter of a year difference, it’s starting to gain a whole lot of impact for me, and the friends around me. Especially our pockets.

The transportation fare’s going to cost a bomb, it more than a 100% increase. Now a trip to HTA would most likely cost $2+, with the train service and the feeder bus service.

Like Carol said ” Welcome to the Single Beep World”

or

Daowei : “Please remember to TITO” (Tap In Tap Out)

Looking at the past year, the events and happenings around me. It has inevitably moulded my own character and carved my ideologies and way of thinking.  The exams, the competitions, the stress and everything. Hopefully, it has strengthened my will and determination to handle with things, to becoming more successful.

I’m a little starting to miss school life, it was only 1 year ago, at this exact instant where i guess most students are fretting on their uncompleted holidays assignments , coupled with the excitement of meeting friends again, and new challenges in the upcoming new year.

Though it might sound kind of bizarre to some of you who are still schooling out there, you will understand when you are in the same side of the shoe as me, or the rest of the people in my batch.

I so want to go back to school, why not i pay a Secondary School Kid a 100 bucks a month and go back to school, enjoy all the rates and treatment of a 15year old kid.

Sounds great?

The cheap canteen food, the allowances that our parents are providing which cushioned our path in search of knowledge,  concession charges for almost everything for students. I would gladly do the exchange.

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Back to reality, stop complaining..  You’re no longer a student!!!  Act like an adult, especially when you are paying for it’s fare.

As boring and aimless 2008 might prove itself to be, but some of the things i want to accomplish and hoped for could probably be.. not in any order of importance..

1. Gold for IPPT
2. Decent A Levels results, for me to enter ICT
3.  
4. Achieve a good posting upon POP
5. Better health and fitness for all family and friends around me
6. and the list goes on… ( as time passes due to the unpredictably nature of 2008)

This post sounds more like a complain post to me.. on second thoughts, i think it’s not so much of a ..

“Happy” New Year.. nothing much to be happy about?

pull your own ears instead

Enjoy 2008 folks, while i silent myself for the next few days and get back to more trainings.

Did i mention that i passed my IPPT? So no confinement for me..

It’s not a crime to be fat, stupidity can lead to more crime due to the incapability to make correct decisions. People from PES Bp can pass IPPT too, so guys in my squad, if i can do it, so can you.

All the way!

Cheers,

2008 and beyond..

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Time’s counting down to the new year, and to a shorter extent, to the time where i have to book in again.

I’m starting to understand the importance of education, though it greatly affects the brightness and the path of the future, it also shapes up the character sense in yourself.

Its irritating to put people from all walks of life together, only to be sabotaged by those people who don’t use their brains to think when they act. Obviously punishments come in the form of the famous “one for all, all for one”. But this is so unfair when there is really nothing that we can do about them.

Selfish people only think about their own personal fun and enjoyment at the instant of time, they do not regard the consequences that they will bring about to themselves, not to say for the people around them.

Having lived for almost 2 decades, it really sets me pondering what they have been doing all these years in their life, doing things as and when they wish.

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After much training , i still failed my IPPT, standing broad jump, i will conquer that 9cm from you!!!

The prep course in HTA is going to end soon, hopefully life would be better when the fit squad people comes in.

I’m going mad polishing my boots and ironing my uniform, can’t believed i spent the whole afternoon doing that so faithfully, pray that the inspection tomorrow will go on smoothly.

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This is where blogging comes in useful, when you have no one to hear the rubbish that you wishes to blabber. At least to a non-living thing, it will neither respond of give comments of your rubbish rattles.

This is the more emo passage of my life, with 2007 coming to a close in another 5 days or so, its good to conduct some self reflections about this things that i have achieved/not achieved in this year.

This year has been exceptionally fast and hectic, considering some of the more major events like SYF, A Levels, Enlistment.. The year really did past by in a flash, and the little moments to think of what to expect next of myself.

In the upcoming year, i’m expecting myself to accomplish some things.

I really hope i do!

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Its the Christmas Season yet again.

Whenever i think of Christmas, its the approaching of the new year, which is also the end of the current. The usual thought would be that school’s reopening and there’s ton of work untouched.

But having left school, all that’s left are the obligations for National Service.

Despite the differences, many things still remains as stagnant as it it.

People make mistakes and wrong choices and decisions in life, probably it’s because of all these  that makes what is called life.

Still pondering if all these are caused by the incorrect moves we take. It all happened with a cause, and mind that it comes with an ED and there’s not much we can really do about it at this point of time.

Arguably, there are no dead ends in life. Its the solutions that make tables turn around. Somebody provide me with some answers to my problems, to salvage the situation.

What a Christmas!

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It’s finally the time for walk-out, after spending 9 days in HTA Camp. Many thanks to JiaHao and Angie for the send off..

And of course.. my parents too.

All those rumours about slacking life away in Police Force is more or less bullshit, i believe trainings are on equal standard compared to Army. Furthermore, ours is not progressive training, so in short.. Life’s tough with that much physical workouts.

After those arduous times there, at least i’m now feeling more built and muscular now, better toning of the body.

Police really distinguish themselves well with Army. Most of the things they do, though similar, sounds different.

Instead of “knock it down” , we have a more refined way of carrying pushups..

“to the left/right on your palms down”

Its more troublesome, because we have to move accordingly to the direction given.

One of the most dreaded action is to do PT in raincoat, especially in the company grounds. With limited grounds provided, its really restricting our actions and the raincoat’s weight makes PT more unbearable.

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Qualification is something that differentiates people around, even in NS. It’s kind of insulting when they say if we do not conduct ourselves well, we will de demoted to XXX. Which this will make those people in the XXX Category feel like 2nd or even 3rd class citizens.

But this is the world here in Singapore, when paper counts. If not for this way, i believe many would feel unjust, studying so hard for the past 13 years in life and only to be working and treated like some other Tom, Dick and Harry that never even completed proper school education.

That’s where the difficult part come in, people that do not receive much education do not really think about their actions. Like the way they talk and carry themselves, which will lead to trouble not only for themselves but all the people around them too.

Well, they specifically mentioned that there is to a certain degree of secrecy in the PF, so its not very advisable to openly discuss about such stuffs here.

Its many more months to go, and i better clear my IPPT next week. I want my Saturdays!

Training to be a NSmen, not NSboy.  Endure.. Persevere!

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In a few moments time, i will be disembarking on the next phase and journey of my life. A point where by past experiences say that it is a period  where boys turn into men.

National Service!!

Do drop by here often and check out for updates. Especially on book out days, bet many are curious about the life of PoliceNSmen in Home Team academy (HTA) since, majority of the people out there do not get the chance to undergo this process.

Glad that both my parents are able to go for the send off invitation. Though it is only a small gesture on their part, but it sure does make the whole process more significance and memorable.

So till then….

Those who are working.. happy working

Those who are slacking… get a life!

Farewell!

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Over the past few days. i’ve literally disappeared away from the cyberspace and blogosphere. Most of the time i was at my grandmother’s wake and at TzuChi doing AV volunteer work.

After much struggles with pain and hardship, she finally left us on a fine morning. We all knew it was a matter of time that she will leave us probably another 3 or 6 months, but none of us expected this to come soon.

Though i do not have very vivid memories of myself with her when i was young, but in the later years of my life, i could feel that i started talking to her more than before when i visited her. Probably due to the mild language barrier that existed; the incompetence of me to speak fluid hainanese.

Not that shes no longer with us, its impossible to treat it like things never happened. Its impossible to say that i as a human being made of blood and flesh do not feel sad about it. But whats happened has happened, there’s really no point crying and tearing for the parting someone in life.

To me, she’s play a role of grandmother. But to my aunties, uncles and my dad, its the death of their sister and mother. I believe that the heartthrob they are feeling is much greater than me.

Throughout these days at the wake, thoughts kind of gets sorted out straight. Probably its really better for her to leave this world, to alleviate herself from the immense sufferings she is under from illness.  Maybe her time is really up, and she has indeed chosen a appropriate time to leave us, where the whole family is able to give her a proper funeral, with the presence of everyone in the family; especially my father who is always overseas.

All we can do now is to continue praying and transferring merits to her, hoping that she finds peace in the Land of eternal Bliss and Happiness in the West.

Well, though she is physically separated from us, but i believe she will continue to live in our hearts, in our memories; never forgotten.

Life is fragile once again, cherish the people around us, especially our parents. I shall elaborate on this further soon, on something which made me feel and reflect of what we have done the past years while growing, and the sacrifices and hardship our parents have made for us, in order to bring us to where we are now today.

Rest in Peace Grandma.

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