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holy crap, there are just so many friggin problems stacking up ONE by ONE. What has the band become to now, all the things that we have built up over the years has been gone in a blink of an eye. What in the world is this, there are disagreement here and there. Some in fact are scaling to a War. Look at it now, the members, the leaders, do they even know the existence of the problems that they themselves have brought upon by their own hands. Not to generalise, but the band now is made up of people that do not give a hoodwink about it. They think about their ownself more than anyone, they only do things that are up to their own benefit. Well, humans all act selfishly, but does it have to be up to this extend. Individual war amongst 2 people is enough to kill the whole section, not to mention that the involved calls the shot.
Quoted frm Mr Kuek, my principal, “Solve the problem, don’t let YOURSELF be a problem”. Which i think make full sense here. I look at the whole band, i can simply pick up ANY section, and i can find problems in it. What are they doing then? Busy creating MORE problems that will not be solved eventually? Do you guys actually know what in the world are you doing. To the masses, is band such a chore? If you ask me, i will tell you, in this band, its a chore. WHY? Mainly because you don’t feel in band when u are supposed to. The whole situation looks like a political scence, not a Singapore one, but a Taiwan Political Scence, where unhappiness are solved by crude words like ‘ oh, shes such a fucking slut’ or ‘ hes such a sissy gay’. Are there metaphors going to aid in your elaboration of that person? A big NO precisely. Then why carry on if its going to inflict damages on both parties.
Times where i ask myself why do i even care so much when it doesnt belong to me anymore. Just wash my hands off everything. If you are reading this and you belong to this band, then start to think of what has caused the situation to be it pits now. Not to metion any names here, people involved know it themselves. Hopefully there wouldn’t be a war of words in my tagboard.

Well guys, look at the clock. Its almost 2a.m but im still here to blogg. Not so much of being insomia, guess its more of like a break in my life or taking a breeze off the catchy lifestyles. I’ve been blogg hopping for the past 3 hours. Maybe it has sort of like become one of my favourite pastimes. Well, i’ve saw many interestings entries of some people which had made me happy, sad, or wadeva.. shant eleborate more about that

Had been going back to the AMK band for the past 2 days, days where i dun have any papers. Somehow i feel a greater sense of belonging there more than any place else in this world; apart from my home apparently. Well, i don’t noe if that place we call it a second home will and can become a true second home for the current band members. For me, the band is the place where i….

• grew up with
• the place i picked up the skill to be a tubist
• to learn to be a leader
• learn to take up more responsibilities in life
• get to know more people
• develop a different kind of character
• and more importantly, to have great friends.
• etc…

i believe this list would be never ending if i really had time to think about it. Back to the point, looking at some of the members now, i wonder if any of them truly enjoyed ‘band’ as what it should be. Thinking back about my band days, its impossible to forget the feelings of the joy and sorrow we have undergone. The 1000 push-ups i had to do for disrespecting xueshi. The never ending fun drills session; though it was rather crappy. The embarassed A3 size scores and solo performances, with Henry Xu. The tales of the sea and silver jubilee overture. the silver medal. the perth trip…………….gold medal………..POP………………bangkok trip…………………………………..the end of my amkss band life as a amksian. So amksian band members, if you are reading this. Hope that your band life, is like a piece of paper, pure white when you were in sec1, but u leave the band with a piece of paper you can all it a piece of ‘Art Work’, with the different colours and different walks you have with the band. Hope that the piece of paper is not full of scribblings and ugly drawings.

i have always thought that my batch of people (the snakes) to be of a different breed of human beings on Earth. Maybe its the change in society, the change in the method of upbringing. Born in the year of 1989, so we are the 80s people. Maybe i should blame it on the society. Life was so much more peaceful when there weren’t so many hi-tech inventions. People were more pure and innocent. There werent so much pollutions (ima geog student). etcs etcs.. Therefore, it seems that kids nowadays are more difficult to coach, more rebellious, more papmered, but not so willing to take hardship anymore.

I have been blogg hopping and i have seen many cases of people from my batch missing secondary school life loads. Which are what my sentiments say so too. Was visiting cindy’s blogg, saw her photos with some of her classmates in some movies taking pictures with movie posters. Unknowingly, i came to think of my class now, which i think its a mere class, nothing else more than that. It seems that after all the bond training and wadeva crap the orientation we went through, i can say that my class might be one of the worst bonded class in school. there are just so many cliques in my class, despite only to have about 20 people only. perhaps i can say that i do not really belong to any of the cliques there, mayb its just that i cant get along with them so well to be in their clique, or it may be that i do not take the effort to talk to them more often.

Reminisining the days i had in AJ for PAE, well even though i was quite unhappy when i got into the class, but somehow the class was able to get along, quite well i thought. We didnt have any ‘bonding class’ or orientation together, but we managed to get along as a class. though there were some octracization here and there. just missing the fun i had then, with rain aka her wadeva many many names, tiffany , wenzhao, and DarylLimCS. Never forget the fun that we had introducing ourselves to teachers. partly its becase we came from all different schools, so we had a more open mind about having new friends. Unlike my current class, where there are chunks of people who knew each other well beforehand and choose to stick around with the old flames. Well im not blaming for this, but if so be it, i’ve just got to live with it for the next 1year plus provided i dun retain.

Let me try to insert some photo, i know nuts about blogger. Blogger photo uploader sark, so dammm slow

Band Brudders
Left-right: me, cs, dw , jh

Rain being flooded by our bags during AJ X-country

Me and wenzhong being lame when our whole day the teachers din come for school

Also another stupid pic taken with my phone’s template

Sometimes there are just so much of stuffs clogging up in me, that if i take time to express things up it will take a long while. Bloggs arent about updating about your daily life and routine, its about expressing your feelings and comments or views about.

End time when i press publish post :3am
Word Count (courtesy of MS Words) : 905 longer than my GP essay

Come on people, put on your thinking caps and think about this for a second.

this scenario

“Its the last day of school now, O’levels are over, no school for the next 1-2 months, books all aside” How would you feel?1)Jump for joy the break through of freedom, though you dunno what to do next

2)Happy, but sad at the same time

3)Feelingless

4)Happy and have arranged for stuffs to do after next

What would most people feel. The first choice i guess. Many people just want a secod or rather different environment and feeling to overcome the exhausted heart. Being caught in any kinds of long situations or problems, one would most likely want to experience something new, be it good or bad. Many a time, people are caught in a dilema. Take the scenario for example. You are feeling happy cos its free for you, on the other hand, you are feeling sad cause you are leaving!! Leaving the frens that have gone thru thick and thin with you. Leaving as in not to meet them and get to tau pok them like almost everyday. How would you feel like that?
Would you ever prefer to never graduate and get to mix around with those bunch of pple or another way, graduate and forget about school life, get on with life forget about the past, make new friends, writing a new chapter of your life.

My choice is 1. Whats yours?

Scenario 2

“imagine you chose choice 4, you got on with life. One day, two gathering were held on the same day same time. You ex-classmates, and your current friends” Which one would you attend?1)ex classmates more impt, long time no see, wonder if they are still surviving..

2)current friends more fun loving, ex classmates, meet already mayb they doing better than me, meet them xia sway, better siam away from them

3)to be the worst loser in life, stay at home and sleep

This.. Hmm wad can one opinions be really depends on the individual side. For me, i would definitely choose to meet up with my ex classmates. “its been aeons since we’ve met, u havent die argh” And not avoid them, fearing that they are doing much better in life and be embarassed to meet up with them. If they are good for them , congraluate them, ask them for the path to doing so, and mayb you can chop some lobang from them you never know.

For example: you friends currently is a Supervisor of “Sunflora” some flower shop. Next week’s valentines day, and you are down right hard up and broke cause u spend all your money on your girlfriend that demands a (wadeva) from you. Work your brains, and get roses from the friend, in bulk, somehow or rather he will give u a discount or freebies. Do some packaging and sell it to those youngsters on Orchard Road who are in steady.I’m sure that would earn you some bucks, provided u got other on friends who are currently single and wan to enjoy the valentine atmosphere to help out in the selling, pay them a little. And you can turn your finiacial tables around. Mayb enough $$ for your 2nd valentine. Oppss?? Your mother la, she a woman too yea, mus lurve her as much yea?”
This is how the modern society is like, things dun go your way, you got to make things go your way. I’m a little out of point now. Back to the Scenario, current friends you can get to meet them now and then , while old friends are hard to gather all of them together. So make a wise decisions. If you dun have friends now, den good for you. You wun haf this problem. But i doubt you will have friends in the future if u dun have it now yea? Hahahaha..
My choice is 1, wads yours…?

wah set own question ownself answer like some idiot i am:D

I wish upon the shining star, the pearly glarorious moon…
1)To be happy
2)To be even happier
3)To be the happiest
4)To be sad

Its been long sinced i have last blogged here, due to some hardware problems that i have encountered and lack of funds. For the past weeks or days even, life’s..? Argh.. so so i guess, did badly for tests and other stuffs. Always had so much to thought of when i wanted to blogg, but when it comes down to the real bloggin, it doesn’t seem that there are alot of things i wannaa type here. Mayb is the fact that those things that i have thought of blogging i dun reallie wish people to see or know it. Its like a complete access to my poor little heart without a key. Somethings must still be kept a secret i guess.
Locking up myself , there are loads of things i wann a share, good ones, bad ones, but there aren’t many or should i sae not even one that i reallie feel so comfortable throwing everything that i feel, that i wish would happen that i want to do everything. No one understands me well, so well that i could trust and pour my sorrows to them. Waiting for things to happen, desperately waiting, but it just never happens.
Maybe i’m not feeling so bad now, immunisation has brought things to a complete lost of senses. Not that kind of touch i am feeling like before, the pain, the sore. Or do i enjoy the insainty i am feeling then, now? Or NEVER again? i wish…

After much sense of thinking, i realised i am real real selfish. I’m building my own happiness on someone’s misery. Though i might find it rather happy and nice about it, the feeling of another party might be completely different and bad. Its real creul of me if i am going to continue it like this, i do not have any right to control anyone. I cannot because of my own fun and happiness make another one suffer. Though it might not be obvious or its not show ing it out, i could just feel it.. I’m Sorry..

hais.. i am really tired, truly very very tired nowadays. Totally tied up by my schdule both by band, my own family schdule and other stuffs. i’m feeling like a total heartless cold-blodded zombie walking everyday through life, not really knowing what i am doing. As all those responsibility piles more and more, i really do not know how i am going to solve all of them. Problems just get piling up and up.. AHH!!!! i’m going real crazy already. Can i request for more time in my life.

Guess i am not spending the right amount of time in the correct place. Sorry if i have not given you enough time or spend time analyzing the situation and salvaging it. Sorry if i hadnt notice about what all that had been happening around me. I do not know at all what i am doing, whether its right or wrong, however it is its real devasting for me to see things like that all around. If given the time to think it hard enough, i will cry… i cant bear to see it like this, but i dunno if this is the correct choice or what. But i am not feeling any better either.

School workload is increasing day by day and i could hardly do those work in the afternoon as i personally think that studying in the afternoon is not a nice thing at all because of the long day in school already and the weather and other stuffs. So i tend to slack a lil more in the afternoons, spending my time frutifully practising on my instruments. At least its not that taxing on the amount of brain juice that has to be squeezed. So i usually put my work at around 8pm plus, after dinner and some TV with my family. Most of the times, i will do till 11plus and 12mid and my mum is already getting kinda of pissed of with the time i sleep. She nags that i dun help with the household chores and stuffs. Truthfully, i dun actually spend much of my times at home and when i get home, its kind of late and stuffs. Life of student is really difficult to gauge by parents and the amount of concentration that has to be placed on work. To them, its just sitting down and listen to wad the lecturer has to say. Hates it when she nags when i doing my work, kind of really puts me off, disturbs my concentration level and merely increasing my patience and anger level. Quarrel and tried to debate with her about the kind of stress and situation, but its to no avail.

Mayb its really diff for her to manage the entire household, but shuldnt she kind of like think students arent leading any more comfortable life than wad they haf now? Rathe than any load on both side of the parties, creating a more tense up situation about the whole thing? Will it help if things were brought about upon in a proper manner or it would be the same? Task given and job assigned. Merely adding more stress to the overload stresing life we already have. May God Bless all:)