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Omg, i am posting here. Guess wad people its less than a week, or mayb exactly a week to Mid year and i havent touch much for it. This is the post i am posting, which i think its so dumb, and cos i got nth to do. Oh well, should i study or not, study or not, study or not.

I’ve got so much interesting events lined up nicely for me, so hard to resists such luring temptations. Oh waisze please see this, i am posting after like almost one year. the last one, or rather last MANY posts are post by this girl whom i am stucked with now at NYJC Au Wai Sze. Do u want to be my blogg assistant once again? C’mon, i know u love this job always right?

4/2 BBQ 18th June
Mid years 23th June
Death NEVER!!!

Its been long sinced i have last blogged here, due to some hardware problems that i have encountered and lack of funds. For the past weeks or days even, life’s..? Argh.. so so i guess, did badly for tests and other stuffs. Always had so much to thought of when i wanted to blogg, but when it comes down to the real bloggin, it doesn’t seem that there are alot of things i wannaa type here. Mayb is the fact that those things that i have thought of blogging i dun reallie wish people to see or know it. Its like a complete access to my poor little heart without a key. Somethings must still be kept a secret i guess.
Locking up myself , there are loads of things i wann a share, good ones, bad ones, but there aren’t many or should i sae not even one that i reallie feel so comfortable throwing everything that i feel, that i wish would happen that i want to do everything. No one understands me well, so well that i could trust and pour my sorrows to them. Waiting for things to happen, desperately waiting, but it just never happens.
Maybe i’m not feeling so bad now, immunisation has brought things to a complete lost of senses. Not that kind of touch i am feeling like before, the pain, the sore. Or do i enjoy the insainty i am feeling then, now? Or NEVER again? i wish…

This will mark the start of the school holiday, mark the start of the month and counting down to SYF. Just had our band camp, two rehearsals at the Singapore Conference Hall. Not really happy about the results the we’ve came out of. Technically wise, maybe we’ve made our mark for it, but in terms of enjoyment and musically aspect. I think there;’s still a long way and look at the amount of time left. 30 days left. Can we make it?? YES of cos we’ll.. Its just how well can we soar. To aim and to be able to achieve the best in that we can do and produce. Is this the best now.. I truly doubt so.
There are still some idiots that are not putting in the effort. The kind of face, the way they act upon commands and the way they play tells a million word. Is it so hard for u guys to do it.
Went CS house for the night, supposed to go there to study, but in the end, all no mood, except for that Jiahao do his stupid chinese hmwk. Wad did we do, i think we just talk and talk, everything also talked about, and kept on disturbing jiahao and his hairless leg lol.. and watch some SARS show.. and sleep.. waste time, but nevertheless fun
Bought ZEN micro le, dun haf to go queue up wif gerald haha..

After much sense of thinking, i realised i am real real selfish. I’m building my own happiness on someone’s misery. Though i might find it rather happy and nice about it, the feeling of another party might be completely different and bad. Its real creul of me if i am going to continue it like this, i do not have any right to control anyone. I cannot because of my own fun and happiness make another one suffer. Though it might not be obvious or its not show ing it out, i could just feel it.. I’m Sorry..

i experienced a fight at the bus lol, this old man suddenly went crazy and whacked this guy and they landed up in a fight and the whole bus had to stop and detain themselves while they wait for the police to arrive. Its just a dispute started when e old man hit the guyand it blew up so big. Initially i thought it was e rashness of the guy that started the whole thing, after knowing the whole situation, it was kind of diff to stand at the point of both parties. Somehow, i pitied the girlfriend that was standing beside him and see him beat the old man up despite she trying very hard to settle it calmy..

Why do people always want to take the hard way to settle things, why both parties take a step back and suffer a little so that it would benefits the majority rather then the minorities? must all things be settled under the violent and lead to some severe consequences that could be voided off easily.

Argh, this is the worst stomachache i’ve ever encounted so far in my life. i guess its because of me skipping meals and eating junk food as meals i think. There are much times where i’m so involved that i forget my meals or somehow i’m just too lazy to eat. Had runs and runs throughout the night and it does not really feels good though.

Had house council dis afternoon and Katat and Siva was elected Captain and Vice-Captain respectively lol..can say that they are so sway lol. The rest few of us like aline and me are jus in the council doing nothing lor. Dun think we will do anithing bahs. bwahaha. thats all for the day i guess, another boring day.

School workload is increasing day by day and i could hardly do those work in the afternoon as i personally think that studying in the afternoon is not a nice thing at all because of the long day in school already and the weather and other stuffs. So i tend to slack a lil more in the afternoons, spending my time frutifully practising on my instruments. At least its not that taxing on the amount of brain juice that has to be squeezed. So i usually put my work at around 8pm plus, after dinner and some TV with my family. Most of the times, i will do till 11plus and 12mid and my mum is already getting kinda of pissed of with the time i sleep. She nags that i dun help with the household chores and stuffs. Truthfully, i dun actually spend much of my times at home and when i get home, its kind of late and stuffs. Life of student is really difficult to gauge by parents and the amount of concentration that has to be placed on work. To them, its just sitting down and listen to wad the lecturer has to say. Hates it when she nags when i doing my work, kind of really puts me off, disturbs my concentration level and merely increasing my patience and anger level. Quarrel and tried to debate with her about the kind of stress and situation, but its to no avail.

Mayb its really diff for her to manage the entire household, but shuldnt she kind of like think students arent leading any more comfortable life than wad they haf now? Rathe than any load on both side of the parties, creating a more tense up situation about the whole thing? Will it help if things were brought about upon in a proper manner or it would be the same? Task given and job assigned. Merely adding more stress to the overload stresing life we already have. May God Bless all:)

Haha.. Finally, i’m gonna blogg.. Though sumhow i strongly do not agree in doing such a ting, cos its like showing the whole world wad u wanna tell them.. But, now.. haha.. i’ve got so much things that i must pour out to something before my mind will blow off..

Life’s not showing much better ever since the start of the new year, experiencing and encountering more problems den b4.. this is seriously not fun.. Sec4.. God.. supposed to be a stressful year.. Starting to shows some signs of recovery towards the problem of waking up early in the morning. Never seemed to get enough sleep dis few days, its real tiring on certain days and the epidemic is all around with the cold weather makes people more slack and lazy.

Rushed through the whole day struggling to complete the maths that Deepa gave, no idea wad she had gave cause i wasnt at all paying attention to her and i dun haf my Sec3 text wif me, so.. had to rush thru.. sometimes, i really jus wanna work hard, but it really seem so hard for me.. Everything is in a rush, and for me.. The biggest tendency for me is to procrastinate. Leaving stuffs thats suppose to be done tomorrow and tommorrow.. There’s no end of tomorrow i guess.. Haha.. Chemistry is getting better for me eevr since Voo took over, understanding was made much easier den Ng-Lau.. At least, i dun sleep in Chem animore.. haha..

Last night, this serious matter which literally turned out to a stupid lame crap.. Mayb it was too much a waste of time brooding over it? Or it was something bad that din wan it to turn out to be into.. I have totally no idea.. Mayb both parties haf their part to say, since both were willngly to compromise, hope the quote ‘they lived happily ever after’ would come about.. Nevertheless. there is bound to be a gap and barrier there now.. No matter wad, this has sort of change my mindset, mayb.. Have people nowadays turn out to be more of such a difficult creature to understand, or mayb people have changed.. Thats the way that i look at things now i guess..

When u do not meet other’s demand, they tend to get not happy and upset and think you are not doing a good job. However, have they ever stepped in the shoes of that person and visualize the whole scenario. Things would have been better, much better.. Much more of it, comparison is taken into the picture where the past and now. However, its a different thing altogether now. People change, politics change, styles change. Every soul have their own ways of managing and doing things, some which you may like, or some that u do not like. Its never for anyone to decide how things should be done to suit the mass, because its totally impossible. Mayb there is a certain extend of a reason why such of an act should be done which might not suit you, but to suit all, not a fair share of part was given much into your consideration. Then i guess, i would be just too bad for you to sacrifice so that the others would be happy? Or is there another alternative which would bring the better for both?

Life’s just so fragile, tomorrow is another day that u will live in under a mystery of today. So why not, think of a better way to live today and not bother about tommorrow as u never know wad will happen……….