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I used to know of small little snippets in life that could cheer me up and make me happy. Now I couldn’t identify any of those things anymore.

Everything is so dull and meaningless now, especially when subjected to all these downcast and disappointments. Never have I been so disappointed this sem before. I guess I kind of overestimated myself with my capabilities. daryl, you’re just normal, plain normal, stop thinking that you’re extraordinary but only end up with bigger disappointments.

It has always been like this, in life in studies in fucking EVERYTHING. Things that I hold dear, things that I cherish, dreams that I aspire, aims I want to achieve never comes true. Life always puts me through this shit of making a decision of choosing options that are of 2nd class, when I gave already given up, leaving me in a dilemma fix.

I’m not stupid. I know what I’ve been dealing with. I know you. I chose to ignore. I chose to believe. I chose my heart over matters. U triumph. U let me loose. U gave me hope. U made me hold on. U used, and U throw.

Pain has awaken, in spite of the numbness.

Best part: I don’t know how to deal with this. U’re just clouding my heart with your presence, I know you’ve been there long enough to claim ownership, but that’s certainly not the way how things work, at least for now I’m sure.