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Over the past few days. i’ve literally disappeared away from the cyberspace and blogosphere. Most of the time i was at my grandmother’s wake and at TzuChi doing AV volunteer work.

After much struggles with pain and hardship, she finally left us on a fine morning. We all knew it was a matter of time that she will leave us probably another 3 or 6 months, but none of us expected this to come soon.

Though i do not have very vivid memories of myself with her when i was young, but in the later years of my life, i could feel that i started talking to her more than before when i visited her. Probably due to the mild language barrier that existed; the incompetence of me to speak fluid hainanese.

Not that shes no longer with us, its impossible to treat it like things never happened. Its impossible to say that i as a human being made of blood and flesh do not feel sad about it. But whats happened has happened, there’s really no point crying and tearing for the parting someone in life.

To me, she’s play a role of grandmother. But to my aunties, uncles and my dad, its the death of their sister and mother. I believe that the heartthrob they are feeling is much greater than me.

Throughout these days at the wake, thoughts kind of gets sorted out straight. Probably its really better for her to leave this world, to alleviate herself from the immense sufferings she is under from illness.  Maybe her time is really up, and she has indeed chosen a appropriate time to leave us, where the whole family is able to give her a proper funeral, with the presence of everyone in the family; especially my father who is always overseas.

All we can do now is to continue praying and transferring merits to her, hoping that she finds peace in the Land of eternal Bliss and Happiness in the West.

Well, though she is physically separated from us, but i believe she will continue to live in our hearts, in our memories; never forgotten.

Life is fragile once again, cherish the people around us, especially our parents. I shall elaborate on this further soon, on something which made me feel and reflect of what we have done the past years while growing, and the sacrifices and hardship our parents have made for us, in order to bring us to where we are now today.

Rest in Peace Grandma.

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